Laying on my bed at night,
Alone and thinking about why I am here.
I have so much love and care to lend.
Did anyone notice my presence?
I met a guy who said he cares for me,
The care that I never felt for long ago.
He manipulated my weaknesses,
He knows how to play all along.
There is so much hurt I feel,
So much anger trapped inside.
I wish my mom were here,
with her tender care.
I have no one to talk to.
Crying seems to be the only way.
Then I realize, all a lie,
Just like the way I smile every day.
I know outside I'm smiling;
It's the face I fake for everyone,
Inside my soul is crying,
There is nothing else I can do.
I know my family loves me.
I'm in their memories when needed.
I'm sick of feeling like I am worthless,
No one understand as I leave.
I lay in bed and asked myself once more,
What the hell I'm doing here.
Wake me up from this dream!
And let me just disappear!
Daily Life in COVID-19